Dad, I am going through a really bad stage, i dont know when i will be able to get through this. You will has gone to probate, i cant believe people can change so much as soon as someone dies. I dont think i have the strength for all of this rubbish. Oh Dad i just want you backa and to cuddle you, now people have changed so much since you left, i thought people around you were nice people but some have just turned out to be mean and nasty. I dont know what to do, what would you want me to do, about the kids and what you said they could have, well that isnt able to happen now, i will try to fight for what is right and what you said would be right, but i really dont think i have the energy, i dont want all of this mess. why do people change so much when money is involved? If we havent got enough emotions to cope with.I am sorry Dad but things are really hard. I know i cant cope with this, i know its getting too painful. I just want the situation gone for good. I love you very much, i keep thinking what would you want, but i already know because we talked about it for hours over the past few weeks. I just think maybe its worth just letting things go just for a stressful life.