It seems such a long time ago that i heard your voice, i had a dream i had an old message on my mobile phone saying you wouldnt leave a message on my voice mail and that you would ring me back later! I did check my phone but i didnt have an old message. Oh my god this is so hard, i dont know how to continue living my life but i know i have to for my kids sakes and bernards. Dad i am now getting married, i so wanted you to be there, but it was too late for you, you couldnt hang on that long. I know you will be there with us. I love you very much, i am so sorry that you cant be at my wedding, but i will be thinking of you all day. I love you very much Dad xx