I dream that I have to choose between you and Bernard who has to die, and everytime I have to choose you... I think its my brains way of telling me that I feel guilty and that maybe someway I could have prevented your death. I also had a dream where you said to me.... well your having no problems eating! Something that you would say...ha ha ha Dad I adore you and everyday i think of you. I have bought the kids some faberge style musical eggs with A loving memory for my grand daughter on it... from you to the girls. I know they will cherish it. This time last year was the last time I saw you fit and well. From then on you lost weight and became unsteady on your feet. Your speach went slurred and you became very withdrawn and unable to say what you wanted to say. Although the emails were very touching. I will always cherish them. I love you. xx